Wednesday, March 10, 2004
Listening to: When You Come Down - Holly McNarland
my freakin throat is itching and burning like crazy! I hate allergies!
Today was boring, same old same old. Except in fourth hour the school's power went out for ten minutes, which was kind of cool. I can't wait until it's 5, then I can watch Charmed, heehee. I'm so addicted to that show.
I have to find a fashion article so I can hand my notebook in tomorrow in fashion merchandising. And I have to finish my review and discussion questions for astronomy, which is a considerably smaller amount of homework than I had last night.
*Brush Into My Tears - Holly McNarland*
I feel like singing but my throat is way too irritated.
Frustrating it is, that every time I go on prozac my inspiration for poetry seems to shrivel and die. It really sucks. I want to write and then nothing comes out of my no-longer-fevered-brain. lol gah. I guess that's something I have to work on.
*I Cry - Holly McNarland*
I love this cd, it's really good. I don't listen to it enough. I'd like to see Holly McNarland in concert. I can't wait to get a job, that'll be nice. Then I'll have money, and I can actually go out and do things.
Anyways I've run out of fun things to talk about.
Posted at Wednesday, March 10, 2004 by Morhuaniel
Monday, March 08, 2004
New Blog Design/Layout again
I think I like this design, it's happy. Reminds me of monkeys.
This picture is a pic of my backyard, with a ghost in it. Ghost isn't real lol. I did this, I like it, so I'm putting it up. :)
Posted at Monday, March 08, 2004 by Morhuaniel
Saturday, March 06, 2004
the grass is green again
the air is warming
and so is my heart
i feel the passion
as it wells up inside
so i sing and i dance
i'm free again
i feel it, so new
on this glorious day
i'm devoted once more
to the sound of your wonders
and the vision of truth
Posted at Saturday, March 06, 2004 by Morhuaniel
Monday, February 23, 2004
ok, dude, I sooo couldn't get this thing to work for me for a month! That sucked.
Not that much is new anyways, I got a solo to take to state, yay me.
Been putting out the fires on a lot of bridges I had begun to burn.
**These are Lyrics, they have music...yeah**
You're the perfect memory
Of a past that haunts me
And I dance your shadow
Like a ballroom floor
And I listen softly
Wonders of your hurry
As you lead my way back
Behind iron doors
So sing my lovely
And live like a cinnamon dream
Sing my lovely
Live in my cinnamon dream
See the reasons looming
In your hardened glass eyes
And your kiss peculiar
On a burning day
Though the pain you left me
Leaks like blood red water
Your hands - they seek me
Nothing left to say
And when it grows dark
I see you
Open my eyes
Posted at Monday, February 23, 2004 by Morhuaniel
Thursday, January 29, 2004
Update: nothing is new. rock on.
Posted at Thursday, January 29, 2004 by Morhuaniel
Friday, January 23, 2004
Sights of far-off fairy flames
That dance on the yellowed muck.
Your friend no longer in your arms,
Though his body remains in presence.
The callous ground desires him.
The rats are kings upon their feast -
Boys no more than sixteen
Lay flowering red
Scattered about this field.
The song of shells and shotguns
Forever sing in your mind.
And it hurts to think
Of a normal life;
Of what they will say;
Of what they will expect;
Of what they want;
Of what you need.
The letters you will write.
The tears that will fall.
And this yellow mist - so enchanting,
This fog of death.
You're held so captive.
Posted at Friday, January 23, 2004 by Morhuaniel
Monday, January 19, 2004
..I'm gonna find ya, I'm gonna getcha getcha getcha getcha
AHHH It's stuck in my head!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
update: not a whole lot. had to go and get a new toothbrush today because my step sister cleaned the bathroom a little too enthusiastically and threw mine out without asking whether it was mine or not. (grrrrr pet peeves are starting to get the better of me).
I'm bored. I watched a whole 2 weeks worth of coronation street my gramma has been taping and sending for me, and I still have another 4 or more weeks to catch up on and then she just told me she just sent ANOTHER 2 weeks worth. I am waaaay behind.
I've made a list, that is going on my wall. Just to keep myself in check. It goes as follows:
-go to school
-do half hour work out
-go to sleep
yup. gonna follow it too. and if I don't, then somebody really needs to kick my ass because I haven't been able to get anything done that I keep talking about getting done because I'm LAZY and UNMOTIVATED. Even when I go, 'man, I'm actually unpleased with my appearance and fitness level' I still manage to sit in front of the tv and not do anything. Well it's gotta stop! lol seriously, I have horrible knees that could be better with exercises to strenthen my leg muscles, and I have a bad back - which yoga can help to straighten out my spine. AND I have unneccessary body fat, not a lot I know, and don't jump down my throat about being skinny. I may not be a big person, but I'm still out of shape, and I know that I am not up to where I once was or can be on the fitness thing.
So I need some SERIOUS MOTIVATION....SERIOUS!!!!!! lol. cuz I can be the most lazy procrastinator in the world, no lies.
Oh and I'm cutting out greasy foods, carbinated beverages, dairy products, and unneccessary sugar intake because I'm probably border line diabetic by now (lol way too much sugar, and lots of diabetes in the family) and I'm lactose intolerant and the lactaid tastes bad. So vitamins are the answer.
Ok, I really need to stop talking about this and actually friggin do it lol.
*turns over a leaf* OK! I'm ready! Bring it on! lol
Posted at Monday, January 19, 2004 by Morhuaniel
Sunday, January 18, 2004
hehehe, w00t I think this'll work.
manip i just made...not very good. working with new photoshop. (btw there's a hand behind the eyes, I lost a lot of the hand in the cleaning process... :( sad for me)
Posted at Sunday, January 18, 2004 by Morhuaniel
Saturday, January 17, 2004
lalalalala it's raining in january. rain rain rain.
bored bored bored.
sick sick sick.
I'm supposed to sing in church tomorrow (hha I almost spelled that with a northwest ontarian accent tamarrow) but I don't think I will be as my throat is trying to KILL me! gah, it hurts so bad, so so bad. I don't even want to go to church tomorrow because The Crow is on tv tonight at 2 am and if I watch it I probably won't even be able to pull my sorry ass out of bed that early. and Pastor Lee is so damn pushy and it's pissing me off. Like he won't take no for an answer when I tell him I don't want to sing, or I don't want to go to youth group. grr.
I'm on the verge of smoking again but I'm going to control myself since I'm just in the beginning stages of preparation for all state choir ensemble contest. w00t lol. I'm in the large ensemble, small ensemble (he hasn't decided what type to put us all in since there are so many altos and one soprano, I can sing sop2 though), and I'm doing a solo ensemble. lotsa singing for me. which means lotsa no smoking lol. especially when contest is only in like 2 and a half months and my throat is beginning to be a bastard.
hrrrm, hrrrmmm, hrrrrrmmmmmmmm, gah I'm so bored. I'm all super fidegty and selculsive lately. weiiiiiiiiird. I need to go have a shower. uugh. don't want to move. must though.
Posted at Saturday, January 17, 2004 by Morhuaniel
Tuesday, January 13, 2004
Gah, I'm bored, again, as usual.
Today was the last day of semester one. So now instead of Psych I have Astronomy, and instead of Housing and Interior Design I have Fashion Merchandising. woo, fun. go me.
There's one person, who's initials are M.Z. who people keep bringing up for some reason. I just don't want to talk about it. Yes he cheated on me. Yes he did other things too....he even started getting sort of abusive towards the end, maybe I asked for it a bit, but it got out of hand. That's that. end of story. I haven't spoken to him in 5.5 months, and I don't plan on any confrontation with the bastard ever again.
Got that out of the way :)
Other than that, I've become completely obsessed with Jet and The Darkness, they rock. I'm always bored. School is stupid. I want a better computer. I wish I could burn cds right now. I wish that I could post replies on databackroad, but my computer is a fucker and won't let me. ah well, they're down until friday for updates anyways, maybe that will make a difference.
*sigh* I hate being trapped here. oh well. life is life I guess.
Posted at Tuesday, January 13, 2004 by Morhuaniel